I'm running on about four hours of sleep, but--surprisingly--I don't want to roll over and die. I can attribute this marvelous miracle to four things:
1. God is merciful. I can't tell you how many blessings that I take advantage of, because most of the time I don't even consider the possibility that God is giving me all these little sanity savers.
2. Ted Talks is AWESOME. I sat down and watched a 10 minute video before going to work, and my day is so much better now. If you're interested in witnessing the amazingness, here is the link.
3. I found an energy drink that is strong enough to work and weak enough that I don't start shaking. It is called Sonic, from the Neuro brand. If my impressive advertising skills have already worked on you and you're interested in learning more, this is their website.
4. I am really excited to do something out of the ordinary.
I think that's what I need to be happy. When I view every day as exactly the same and I have nothing to look forward to and I'm just waiting for the day to end, well that can be a big downer. But if I treat each day as some sort of strange holiday, where I have something to be excited about every single day, everything changes. Like, everything.
You know those commercials where people say "live in the moment" or "celebrate each day," well, I've never understood what on earth they were talking about until now. I guess that applies to everyone though; you don't get a concept until you can apply it specifically to yourself. Well I've finally had a breakthrough and I get it.
New Thing Number Two: I made myself dinner and watched Sherlock.
Okay, so that's not exactly new, but there were a few blips in my original plan (which will instead take place tomorrow...if I can finally make a decision on what my plan actually is) and when it came down to it, I wanted to treat myself to something. And THAT is essentially new.
I went to the store and grabbed a few essential items--fritos, ground hamburger, a tomato, ice cream, and fruit juice--then I cooked up for myself a delectable and totally unhealthy taco salad with a homemade shake for dessert. With this feast before me, I hunkered down and watched the latest episode of Sherlock. Which, in hindsight, might not have been the best idea. I don't think I'm going to sleep after watching that. Won't help my insomnia very much.
Very rarely do I do something for myself. I mean, yeah, I am a big fan of plopping down on the couch, staring at a screen for hours on end, and counting that as "me" time, but really I am doing nothing. Tonight I made a special effort to treat myself to something out of the ordinary, and I feel particularly satisfied. This is definitely a new feeling that I could get used to.
And, to top it all off, I am going to curl up in bed with a good book. Until I can get the freaky out of my brain and fall asleep. Wish me luck.
New Thing Number Two: I made myself dinner and watched Sherlock.
Okay, so that's not exactly new, but there were a few blips in my original plan (which will instead take place tomorrow...if I can finally make a decision on what my plan actually is) and when it came down to it, I wanted to treat myself to something. And THAT is essentially new.
I went to the store and grabbed a few essential items--fritos, ground hamburger, a tomato, ice cream, and fruit juice--then I cooked up for myself a delectable and totally unhealthy taco salad with a homemade shake for dessert. With this feast before me, I hunkered down and watched the latest episode of Sherlock. Which, in hindsight, might not have been the best idea. I don't think I'm going to sleep after watching that. Won't help my insomnia very much.
Very rarely do I do something for myself. I mean, yeah, I am a big fan of plopping down on the couch, staring at a screen for hours on end, and counting that as "me" time, but really I am doing nothing. Tonight I made a special effort to treat myself to something out of the ordinary, and I feel particularly satisfied. This is definitely a new feeling that I could get used to.
And, to top it all off, I am going to curl up in bed with a good book. Until I can get the freaky out of my brain and fall asleep. Wish me luck.
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